Well, I finally manage to get laid - the second time. It was a booty call - yes apparently I've gone back in time and i'm 25 all over again. I didn't want to DATE the guy I had sex with last month (let's call him the Una-Dater) but I did want to have sex again! So I thought great- he will do- we did it once.
So I texted- and tried to make it casual "I'm out- its late- what r u up to?". But that didn't work- our schedules kind of sucked... So two weeks ago the Una-Dater and I made a casual sex date for tonight. Yes, it took two weeks. I'm busy!
This morning I got a visit from my "friend" - and yes, I am using that as a euphemism for period!! So I texted him to let him know- but we both decided we were still on. I should have known then- god was giving me an out, and I didn't take it. I put my needs above the cues I was being given. Obviously the Una-Dater was going to have sex with me regardless- I am pretty great in bed-- this I remember.
It was fine- although he had some trouble staying hard, which is something I haven't dealt with in a while. I know how to take care of myself- because I am 36 years old... But I like it to be easier for a man. And not to say he didn't try and didn't figure it out. But it was way more work than it needed to be for either of us. It was like whiskey dick- but I don't think he'd been drinking-- too bad.
Then we went for some nachos (I got my "friend" did you miss that part?). Then I came home.
And as I sit here, contemplating my life- and my impending sex date with the Una-Dater in July - I think, wow... What have I gotten myself into?
And how do women end up with the short end of the stick in this way. The Una-Dater is 34, has 3 kids and no money and is relatively attractive. He is certainly not the worlds greatest catch. But he is certainly dating- a lot. He is seeing a few women, and he is all over the interwebs-- if I had his online dating profile you couldn't pay men to contact me... But women do not care- divorced, kids, less than gorgeous? It's all ok. But for men (online anyway) if you ain't perfect what's the point. I am swearing off online dating(for now definitely). I'mjust not great on paper and it makes me feel bad about myself.
Or maybe my mood is shit because I got my "friend".
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